Sunday, June 23, 2013

What Feeds Your Soul?

I'm back after being away for over a month.  To say the least the past few weeks have been a tad trying in my little world. 

After a botched attempt at meeting a new guy (turns out, dude has a kid and a girlfriend....how I find myself in these situations I have no idea), I've been chatting a bit with someone else.  This morning he sent me a message and asked the typical "what do you do in your spare time?" "what things do you enjoy?" and then this one: "what feeds your soul?".

What feeds my soul?

Huh.

Good question.

Of course I rattled off the usual responses: I like reading and books, cooking, music, I enjoy photography.....candle lit dinners and long walks on the beach.  

But are those things that feed my soul?

The more I gave some thought the more I realized that I've been neglecting myself; and not just these past few trying months, but in general.   I don't take time for me.  Well, rather I don't take positive time for me.  Up until earlier this month I was unemployed for 3 months, so I had plenty of time to myself but the majority of it was spent being bitter, miserable and sad.  In hindsight I should have allowed myself some time to be angry, but then used that time for me (along with job hunting!).  I should have capitalized on the opportunity that was staring me in the face to refocus and realign my priorities. 

About a week or so ago I found myself searching online for churches in my city.  I don't know what sparked it but I spent a fair bit of time reading websites, listening online to their services.  As I kept reading and browsing I realized that church isn't quite what I'm seeking.  It didn't feel quite right, like it wasn't the right fit. 

What does feed my soul?  I honestly can't tell you that at this point.  I have things I enjoy but are they things that nourish my soul? 

So, my blog friends, I ask you this: what feeds your soul? What brings you positivity and happiness?

It is foolish to postpone enjoyment of your ordinary life until you are more successful,
more secure, or m
ore loved than you are today
~ Timothy Ray Miller