So long 2010....

....hello 2011!

This is the time of year where people start making resolutions and whatnot for the coming new year. Which is great, if that works for you. For me, resolutions don't work. Resolutions feel too absolute and rigid to me. Even calling them goals doesn't sit right with me. If it feels like something I HAVE to do, like a chore, I know myself well enough to know it won't work for me. I'm very much a "when I'm good and ready on my own time" kind of person. Yeah, I get that from my Dad - collectively we drive my mother crazy!

I want 2011 to not necessarily be a year of change but just a year of doing. Doing new things. Doing more. I'm a self proclaimed lazy-ass. While having some lazy time can be good I allow myself far too much of it. I have noticed I am happier when I'm busy. I had a few days about 2 weeks ago that were just non-stop busy, and while it was exhausting I felt great! I had done something (well, lots of somethings), been productive. So this coming year I just want to do more.

A few things that have popped to mind are....
-work more on my photography (I have volunteered to take some photos for a friend of mine and her bf)
-hike more
-hit the beach more than twice this summer
-get involved in some sort of volunteering (I'm currently researching options...leaning toward the SPCA)
-read more, and a different variety of books (yeah, this may also allow me to be a lazy-ass but I LOVE to read and would like to broaden my reading horizons)
-get back on a horse as much as possible. I rode competitively for years then had to let it go when I went off to college. Anyway, the last time I was on was a year and a half ago, and it ended with me being launched to the ground, so I haven't been on since.
-watch more documentaries (yeah, again with the being lazy, but if I'm going to veg I might as well learn something)

I'm sure I'll dream up more to add to the list, these are just the ones that I've been thinking about lately.

And maybe 2011 will find me in a relationship....who knows. I've been talking to a guy, so we'll see what happens......we dated a bit 2 years ago, it didn't work out at that time (I don't think I was quite ready at that point), but we've kept in regular contact ever since. He brought up last week that we've kept in touch ever since so what would going for a cup of coffee hurt. And he's got a point. Of the few people I've met and gone out with I don't keep in touch with any of them, but him. So we'll see what happens.

In any case, I hope 2011 brings you all nothing but great and wonderful things!
Cheers!

'Tis the season

Ok, so I went to my staff Christmas party last year, which normally would have meant I would work in this year so the other supervisor could go. Fine. I expected that. Turns out our manager is being made to work so we can both go. Yay! (I think I really like our new head manager!)

So I get off at 3:00 on the day of the party. Not ideal, but whatever. At least I have the evening off to go. And I don't have to be to work until 3:00 the following day. And a friend of mine rearranged her schedule to come as my guest. I bought a fun new dress, we're both looking forward to getting girlied up and going. We even decided to book a hotel room to make a full night of it.

Then there is my Christmas schedule, which blows chunks if you ask me.
Last year I worked to 11pm on Christmas Eve and 7am-3pm on Christmas day. Gross. I got off at 3:00 and made the 2.5hr drive to my aunt's house for family dinner, spent the night with my parents, drove back Boxing Day morning to work at 3:00 that afternoon. Not ideal and a crazy rushed couple of days but at least I got to go home and see everyone.

So given what I worked last year this year I should have Christmas Eve night off and Christmas Day morning off. But no. For some reason my boss has decided to screw me completely out of Christmas. I have the same schedule as last year, only on Boxing Day I have to be to work at 7am. So if you do the math I don't get to go home. At all. Fanfuckingtastic.

My mother is upset I won't be home.
My littlest brother is upset.
My other brother is pissed as is SIL.
My grandmother isn't pleased.
My aunt is ticked as well.

So, I asked the other supervisor if he'd switch shifts with me for Boxing Day, you know, since I get no family time this year and because he has the shifts I should have had. He said he didn't think it would be a probled m but to leave it with him as he had to run it by his fiancee first.

Now, the night of the party he also has off but has to work at 7:00 the following morning. So I get an email from him tonight saying he is using my wanting the switch on Boxing Day as leverage to get me to work the morning shift for him after the party.

Seriously?

I already have things planned out for that night and the following morning. And the fact that he called it leverage pissed me off.

I sent him back and email...I'm just foggy on the details of what I wrote to him at this point. The gist is I can't switch the morning for him because I have things planned and coordinated as does my friend who is coming with me (transportation etc etc).

He openly admits he doesn't celebrate Christmas. I'm not asking him to give me the shifts I should have been given, I'm simply asking him to switch Boxing day. He knows Christmas is important to me, especially now with this being my niece's first Christmas.

I'm pissed that my boss didn't think enough to make sure everyone got some time off over Christmas. Every single time my boss has called me to come in last minute I've gone. I've called in sick only 3 times over the past 2+ years. Stay late? Sure. Come in early? Sure. Do his dirty work, yeah I do it. What do I get? A kick in the ass. Every other weekend I have to work until 11pm on Friday night then at 7am on Saturday. Not the other supervisor. He doesn't get any back-to-back shifts. I rarely ask for anything. I get all the shit stuff and then get a swift kick in the pants for it.

I'm pissed that whether or not I get a Christmas this year rests in the hands of two uncaring assholes.

Hopefully there will be some good movies on Christmas day evening, I'll need something to occupy myself since the house will be empty besides me.